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I suppose I should start where it all started. T.V. Party - Various - Repo Man (Music From Original Motion Picture Soundtrack), more specifically, started ending. The night Chris told me he was done with our marriage. I can recall exactly what I was doing on the June evening this one-way conversation started: I was standing at the sink in the kitchen Monster Commandment - Shams Presents Various - Real Sex 2000 of our one-room first floor, washing a bunch of Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same , my favorite salad green, pushing my hands through the cold water in the salad spinner to shake the dirt loose.

I was looking out the window over the sink, marveling at the beautiful backyard of our Brooklyn home: an actual lawn, its bright green grass thick as a carpet; a wood deck; and a pergola with grapevines climbing over it in curlicue abandon.

The yard was my favorite thing about our house, a house that we'd bought Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same moved into just five months before on a freezing-cold January day, when our son, Zack, was just five months old. Stationed in his bouncy seat on the floor in the empty living room, he'd watched with wide eyes as everything we Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same was marched through the front door in big cardboard boxes.

I felt Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same to live in this house every single day, especially now that the backyard had come to verdant life. Every evening after I took the subway home to Brooklyn from my job in Manhattan, I'd pick up Zack as I walked in We Fade To Grey - The Sound Of Trees Talking door and nuzzle his soft, sweet skin, say my goodbyes to his nanny and head out the back door and lie down in the grass while Zack crawled around.

I'd stare up at the soft blue sky, drink in the smell of the green all around me and think, I can't believe how lucky we are. I cherished that skyward view: a simple pleasure that made me feel small in the best way, as if I were being cupped in the hands of the universe.

Simple and small were antidotes to the way I had been living my life for so long, with a complicated, jam-packed schedule, forging a career in the larger-than-life world of magazine publishing. For me, Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same was new, and small was good. I finally felt ready to stop going at a dead run, as I had been for so long, to slow down and settle into being happy.

Making dinner every night was a new pleasure for me after years of takeout meals at home or at my desk. I looked forward to putting in the half hour of calming busywork that getting dinner on the table entails, once Chris had come home and was able to take Zack off my hands. I'd stand in the kitchen and feel my brain slowly empty of the zillions of details and to-dos that make up a day in the office as my hands took over, chopping peppers and onions into just-right dice, whisking a vinaigrette and washing salad greens.

As I poured the water from the salad spinner down the drain that night, I was feeling grateful for everything in my life, but I couldn't ignore Chris's silence pressing against my back. Sometimes people are quiet in a room in a way that feels like company, but today, as with a lot of days in the last few years, and especially since Zack was born, Chris was quiet in a way that felt like an absence.

I started to turn around from the sink, wanting to find a way to pull Chris back into the room. I was sure that when I faced the sofa my eyes would find Chris staring blankly into middle distance, ignoring our tiny son, who was playing at his feet.

And that was exactly the domestic tableau I beheld. Chris didn't turn to meet my gaze. Instead, as he felt my eyes come to rest on him, he let out a slow, pointed exhale. I bristled, disappointed and annoyed. And so, still not turning his face, with its long, aquiline nose, huge blue-green eyes and those full, pink lips I was delirious to call mine when we were first married, he said, simple as pie, "I'm done. I felt my face go slack in shock as my vision narrowed to a tunnel centered on Chris's blank face, and everything else went dark.

From the day Chris made this pronouncement, I felt my whole life click into slow motion as the last moments of my marriage started to slip through the hourglass. Suddenly there was a time bomb ticking loudly in the middle of the house, threatening to smash my life--my family, my security, my entire identity--into unrecognizable bits. I entered a kind of split-screen crisis mode, shuttling between a panicked search for solutions and the velvety comfort of hiding in denial as I tried to figure out how to Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same the bomb.

My mind became a Japanese teahouse: orderly, quiet, with delicate sliding shoji screens to separate my conflicting needs, to make it possible for me to keep on keeping on when it seemed that my husband had just brought everything in our life to a dead stop.

As I started to ponder the impossible whys of how he and I had found ourselves here, and the impossible questions of how I would begin again, I slid open and shut the shoji screens in my mind to hide or reveal, a little at a time, what I was feeling--the anger, the fear, the bottomless grief--so that I could keep myself from being overwhelmed by my emotions.

In a hush, I tiptoed around Chris and I tiptoed around myself, afraid to glimpse my reflection in the mirror and see the fear in my eyes. This talk of divorce was coming at a spectacularly bad time. I was the primary breadwinner in our family, and I had recently been fired from a job I loved.

Chris and I were still learning how to be parents; our cherubic son was still an infant. We owned this lovely, but needy, house, and the big mortgage that went along with it. And I was interviewing for a big new job, the job of my dreams: taking the helm of Redbook, a huge national magazine that was all about women living their grown-up lives--and Hang Up The Phone - Various - One Voice: The Songs Of Chage & Aska no small part, their married lives.

In the end, I got the job. But I lost the guy. The life we'd built together over Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same years began disassembling itself without my permission as Chris and I started the slow, hard work of breaking up. Then our house began falling apart, too, revealing breaches in the foundation and the roof that the house inspector, my husband, and I had all missed before Chris and I bought it--and, we would find out later, that the couple who sold us the house had maybe intended to hide.

On my very first day as editor in chief of Redbook, torrents of water poured into the basement of the house. And the floods continued as September hurricane rains worked their way up the coast and pounded the Northeast, forcing me to undertake a months-long renovation that led to the house's foundation being jackhammered into bits. A few weeks later, the roof and walls of the house started to leak in three or four or five different places, depending on how the wind was blowing.

The symbolism of it all was undeniable: water flooded my house for months, as pain was flooding my life. The foundation of my existence was being rocked, as was the foundation of my house. Water followed me everywhere, and so did the tears. I was running a magazine about love and marriage just when everything I thought I knew about either was being put to the test.

And I was reinventing that magazine at the same time that I was going through the incredibly painful process of reinventing myself.

And it got worse. I had to fire two full-time nannies in a row and so found myself scrambling to patch together child-care arrangements for Zack. And then there would be a beach house fire and the two emergency room visits, and all the heartbreaking ways in which my family and friends couldn't give me what I asked for despite their best intentions, because they had to live their own lives, too.

I kept my best game face on at work, desperate not to show weakness either to my staff or to upper management as I spearheaded the magazine's transformation. My friends marveled at how I was able to handle the pressure of the big job while I had such a young son.

But the job was, in many ways, the easy part, even though it absorbed so much of my concentration and time: I knew that I knew how to run a magazine, and Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same trusted my skills and instincts at work. But I was just learning how to trust myself as a mother. And I had absolutely no idea how to handle the crisis in my marriage. Had someone sent me a short story with a heroine living the events that were unfolding in my life, I would have rejected it for being facile and unbelievable.

But this wasn't a story, it was my life. And there was no way to get to the other side--of the divorce, of the house's flaws, of my own weaknesses, which I'd spent a lifetime trying to ignore or exorcise--except to He Is Your Brother - ABBA - The Definitive Collection through it all.

I know that on many days I watched my divorce unfurl from a safe distance, as if I were perched somewhere over my own shoulder, or standing just behind one of my mental shoji screens, Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same eyes peeled for the flashes of wisdom that would help me to begin to make sense of the end of everything I thought I knew about myself.

Friends and family commented on my calm, wondering why I wasn't angrier. But I didn't want the heated blur that comes from anger. I wanted clarity. I wanted answers. And eventually I realized that anger--at my ex, at life, at God, at the house that leaked, the dishes that were dirty, the fate that would seemingly send me plague after Oops!.I Did It Again - Britney Spears - Greatest Hits: My Prerogative until I started wondering if maybe I had been cursed--would keep me from feeling everything I needed to feel to be able to let go and be free.

That is just one of the lessons I learned on my journey through divorce. I stumbled across these lessons like so many river stones tossed on the shore, quieting thoughts coughed up out of the endless roil and thunder that filled my head in those two dark years. I picked them up and played with them in my mind, the way a hand will worry coins in a pocket. They gave me comfort, even though they weren't the answers I thought I wanted, and the lessons weren't always easy.

Like the time I found myself lying on my kitchen floor for the fourth or fifth time, crying away another night, and I realized that even though I had so many people in my life who wanted to help me, no army of friends was going to be able to meet me here in my alone.

But as the weeks, and then the months, unfolded, it slowly dawned on me that I didn't need an army, even though I often felt my friends and strangers and our whole entire culture urging me to make divorce the ultimate battle.

What I wanted on the other side One Fine Day - Carpenters - Now & Then all this pain wasn't to win, to be "right," or even just to be able to claim the cruddy consolation prize of being the one who was "wronged. I decided the only way to rebuild was to start to understand who I really was, to love and forgive myself my failures, to move beyond all the dashed dreams to trust myself again.

To dare to imagine who I might be on the other side of all this. To hold my best idea of myself in my mind's eye and walk toward her, instead of being distracted by the anger and hurt that threatened to take root in my soul and scar it forever. And that has been the journey of a Falling Apart - Vision (22) - One And The Same to decide who I am and who I've been and who I want to be, and to do all of that with compassion, both for myself and for my ex.

Five years later, I can honestly say that my divorce is the best thing that ever happened to me. Because I am at peace, and not just with my divorce.

Show Of Hands - Arrogance, Ignorance And Greed / The Keys Of Canterbury myself. Continue Reading ForbesWoman. Share to facebook Share to twitter Share to linkedin I suppose I should start where it all started. See: "Even Perfect Women Get Divorced" I felt lucky to live in this house every single day, especially now that the backyard had come to verdant life.

Just like that. The irony was as rich as buttercream frosting on a wedding cake. Who but an optimist would propose that this is what divorce has to offer?


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